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January 18th, 2007
11:05 am
livejournal i think is just a way for lonely, bored people to post up about their day or problems so other lonely, bored people can comment on it. and help them out in their lonely-boredness. my last entries in this thing, from like a year ago, very depressing. i was a sad kid. its almost weird seeing how much i've changed since then. so maybe livejournal is also a way to look back on the past and see how you've grown up from it. because i sure as hell have.
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July 2nd, 2006
03:07 pm
shit is just so weird lately. i dunno. i feel like when i wakee up im not all there. i feel like im never all there. like something is missing, i guess. i dont really know. things just seem so much more depressing knowing that im not going to be here in a month-ish. i feel like shit
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June 22nd, 2006
12:35 am
man i can't belive i still remember the password for this.
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March 19th, 2006
10:46 am
my cat just died.
my sister started freaking out upstairs, so me and my mom came and my cat was like spazzing out on the ground. i thought it was a hairball or something, and they tried helping her but then she just fucking died.
i swear to god that was the most depressing thing i have ever seen in my life.
i feel so bad because i used to call her fat all the time and would always push her off me, and now shes fucking dead. and she looked so cute just lying there. she felt so soft. her eyes were still open and we tried to close them so it wouldnt look as scary but it didn't work.
i miss my cat.i fucking love her so much
Current Mood:  depressed
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February 24th, 2006
11:36 pm
So Ben and I had this long talk today, and we came to a conclusion.
I honestly think that the government made up religion. Government came before religion. Think about it, back in prehistoric time when people were half apes and shit, there was still a ruler of the pack. There is always a form of government, even with cavemen, except it isn't as technical as ours today, but it was still a form of a ruler and followers. So government came before religion. I think the government at the time, or a certain form of it, in the Jesus time period made Jesus to say he was the son of God and discuss Christianity because the goverenment was tierd of people fucking getting arrested and stuff. Look, the government makes more money off us if we are having jobs and living in a house and shit by taxes then it does if we are in jail. So the government wanted people to become better people so they can make more money off of them. I mean, tons of the government's money goes to church funds. You know why? Because the churches are trying to convince people that they should be so fucking scared of burning in hell that they should never commit any crimes. And I think the government wants people to not commit crimes for the fact that having people in jail looses them money. I mean, its cool that religion is making some better people, but i honestly think that those people are being lied to and are being brainwashed into being so fucking scared of what will happen after they die that they will do anything to be good people. Which is exactally what the fucking government wants. And another thing. I think with all these safe sex campaigns and shit, the government doesnt want to protect others, they want to protect themselves. If we have people dying of aids, guess what? They don't make money. They actually loose money, because the family of the person who died gets paid when there is a death in the family. And insurence companies loose money for medical bills. I really doubt the government gives two flying fucks about some Jimmy kid in Illinois who gets HIV. They care about Jimmy's money. They make these condom and birth control advertisments so kids will use them, but not because they care about the people, because they don't want there to be any deaths or anything that could cause them to loose money.
I also think that you need to care about yourself. Ben said you should only care about others, but how can you care about others when you can't care about yourself?
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February 14th, 2006
08:58 pm
i kind of wish some one would call me fat so i could have an excuse to work out and go on a diet. i like change like that. like when i was vegetarian for half a year, it was nice, restricting myself from meat and trying new stuff. yes oh well.
i heard a really beautiful song yesterday. its on my ipod now. is there anyway i can load an ipod song to like myspace or something? that would be cool.
well im bored.
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February 8th, 2006
07:26 pm
i wish i knew what he really wanted.
he confuses me.
i am in one of those moods where i don't want to do anything.
i don't want to see anyone.
i don't want to talk to anyone.
etc.
but what i do want is for me to be in a better mood.
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January 30th, 2006
08:28 pm
i don't know what the fuck im doing on this website.
i really have nothing to write. and now that i wrote that, i'll probably write some really long ass entry. i want to do something. like honestly, get the fuck up and go do something. go skiing. ride on a boat. go fishing. take a dance class. i duno. something. things are going in the same fucking routine. constantly. i mean, i am getting so bored with school and other shit, its litterally driving me insane. is literally spelled with two t's? yea. i think so.
i hate those smiley faces on AIM that you can use. mine are always so small, i can almost barely see the expression. thats pretty lame.
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January 16th, 2006
12:49 pm
i want to sleep all day but i can't
i want a bowl of cereal but i can't because i am full
i feel really weird.
not good.
i don't want to do anything today
i want to be lazy
and i want to fucking sleep
but i cant
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January 8th, 2006
09:35 pm
god jesus i hate guys
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